Dear Family and Friends,
This week has been wonderful! I have started to feel so much better, my energy level is up, and we even had 2 snow days to top it all off! As many of you know, I was working two jobs: teaching middle school choir and leading the Whites Chapel Children's Choir in Southlake. After speaking to my doctor about being sick and so busy, we decided that it would be in my best interest to step down from the children's choir this semester. It was definitely a wonderful decision and I can totally tell a difference in my demeanor.
So, I am starting to feel the pregnancy emotions. I have been missing my mother like crazy!!! Maybe it is the combination of becoming a mother myself and wishing she could be here to call to ask the silly questions about pregnancy. (PS. Dad, you are doing a great job filling the mom void by answering all of the questions). I often imagine what the expression on my mom's face would be like the first time that she held her first grandchild. I imagine the proud look that she would have gotten in her beautiful eyes as she locked eyes with the child for the first time. I just pray that God allows her to look down on that first day that we hold our child so that she can experience it with us.
Today I had one of the best days I have had in a long time! I spent the day with two of my oldest friends in the world, Lacee and Meredith. Today was Lacee's baby shower and we went lunch before and caught up and shared funny memories. It was kind of one of those "happy sad" days! You see, spending time with these two wonderful friends made me think about my mom even more. To quote the last letter my mom wrote to me before she passed away,
"Mery was and will always be special, I will forever look at our recliner and see the two of you curled up in it under a blanket watching psycho movies." Lacee-"I love when you two are together and laugh until two in the morning. It makes my heart melt to know someone can bring you so much joy."
My mom was right, these two women are so special and truly mean so much to me! These two women, plus Sarah, were instrumental to helping me become the woman that I am today. Meredith-My first true friend in Eagle Mountain in the 5th grade, who really did introduce me to God. If it was not for her, I never would have gotten involved in Lakeview Youth and never would have had so many of the wonderful experiences that I had in middle school and high school. Lacee-the person who walked with me through the most difficult times in my life, forcing me to slow down, always reminding me of the wonderful memories of my mom and keeping me accountable. Though we did not see each other everyday, every month, or even every year, I love you guys and I am so thankful that when I see you, it is like a moment never left! I am so proud of the women that you have both become...I am proud to be your friend!
While at church tonight, I really started to cry thinking about life (here are those pregnancy emotions again...) and missing the ole' momma and friends. Then, we sang an arrangement of Amazing Grace, perhaps my mom's favorite hymn in the world ( I will add the arrangement to the blog real player). The beginning of this arrangement starts out with...
"My chains are gone, I've been set free. My God my savior has ransomed me. And like a flood, his mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace."
In my baptist sort of way (sorry dad :) ) I realized that my mom's chains are gone and she has been set free in heaven...how is that for amazing grace?!?
So, in conclusion, today was a joyous day filled with food, laughter, memories, tears, and a realization that my mother is in such a better place. Though it hurts and I miss her so much, I am thankful that she has been set free from the burdens that she endured while in this world. God is good!
Though you may not be pregnant and hormonal, I hope I made each and everyone of you shed a tear! hahahahahahah!
Love you guys!
Melissa
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2 comments:
OMG!!! You totally made me cry like a baby and I have a house full of people! I love you so much and Mom would definately be proud of what you have become and definately proud of that baby you are carrying and soon to be having! I know a 100% in my heart that Mom is going to be watching you through this whole pregnancy and even when you give birth she will be there! I love you sis! If the hormones get the best of you, you are more than welcome to call me and just cry! I am always here! I cry all the time about nothing LOL and I am not even pregnant so I can totally somewhat relate! I love you sis and I am really glad you got to catch up with old friends and that you got something from praise and worship tonight at church! Can the next blog be funny again? JK I LOVE YOU!
Yes, I am crying. After Cory and I spent some alone time with Hogan, and invited our families in to meet him, my Mom was the first person I handed him to when I introduced him by name for the first time. It was very special, and I'll never forget how she looked at him. I'm so sad that you won't get to see that on this earth, but you can dream it and know that she's got that joyful, proud look on her face that you WILL see again some day.
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